The beginning of the end of an era

I picked up Martin from Glasgow Aiport last night after he spent a day with his new flatmate searching for a flat in London!  Both of them have been asked to intern with ESPN for a year and are having to scramble to get settled and ready to enjoy this new chapter in their lives.

It is a very exciting time for Martin and I am really, really proud of him for being offered this position.  But, like my husband said, it happened so fast!  After almost 24 years of Martin living with us, it is going to be a huge wrench to our hearts when he begins his "real" life!  No matter what the warning, it would always have happened too fast.

Martin and Nick flew down for just one day and were lucky to find something they liked and could afford.  They still do not know if they have it though.  I guess English law is different than Scottish law when it comes to agreeing a new let, so I will keep my fingers crossed for Martin's email to be successful today.

The plan is for him to go to London to settle in on 16 June, then come back here to leave for his vacation in LA.  All very unsettling for him and a bit confusing.  My heart goes out to Martin, it should be an exciting time to start a new career, and an exciting time to look forward to being in LA, but the issues of being an adult are crowding out the pleasure in both just now.

I know as parents, this is what we do - raise our young and encourage them to become independent.  And I am very proud that Martin is so independent and will certainly do well.  But that does not make the hurt any less....It has always been nice to have him in the house.  Who would have guessed that last September would be his last birthday at our house, or even Christmas?  Especially being involved with sport editing, he will not be coming home for Christmas! 

It is not healthy to wallow in self pity because my happiness is not the important thing, Martin's new career and new life are the ones to be excited about and I will do my best not to allow myself to go crazy like I did when Corbyn and Whitney moved out.

Looks like I need to start being more positive quickly, I have been in a really bad mood all day.  Maybe it is the fact that I stayed up late to get Martin at the airport and then allowed myself to stay up later to cook him something and talk about the new flat.  I have earned the grumpiness today and this will not last!


Next day - of course they were successful! But reality has set in on how much money they are going to have to shell out for rent....plus Martin and Lynsey are planning to go to Los Angeles for 3 weeks, before he starts!  As the penny dropped, Martin has now started trying to change his plans a bit. 

A father is a banker provided by nature.
      French Proverb